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Reagan Dregge's avatar

Happy Birthday. Did the cupcake eater offer you one? Pizza is a great way to celebrate. I'll keep it in mind for my 40th in July.

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Lori Morrison's avatar

Well Sara! You did it again! I feel like now I understand the world of alien early people ! You would have killed me after a day or so, for being on time is like climbing Mr. Everest for me. It is like sculpting the Pieta. It is a monumentally difficult work to even begin calculating it. I was in our little church choir in Appalachia and arrived late always, though I'd drive hoping my speed in far would magically overtake reality and transport me 15 minutes early. And prompt, genetically hardwired early me McCarty would always have a snarky remark as id shamefully slither under the carpet up there, drenched in sweaty sorrys. Yet that shame only gave me more intense migraines. Never ability to be early. If I have been early it has been by accident. I feel I e entered another realm of Twilight zone maybe where I don't belong. What's funny is I had those exact terrifying dreams of driving the car from the backseat , but in mine, I'm pushing my leg under the seat trying to stretch it to the gas, and stretching my arms like crazy to reach the steering wheel over the dead person who's careening or has just died in driver's seat. I've been told I have a Cuban or Jamaican time soul of which I loved to hear, for it made my shameful to Americans lateness sound cool. In those church groups, life was so chill. I'd found my people. Nobody cared when you came or how long you stayed.. In my church up north, a sermon was preached on earlyness being a requirement for sanctification and I realized then I was shot. My lateness was proof I had no care for others or their precious minutes that I was purposely squandering on my own pleasures...e.g. freaking out rushing around home trying to get to a place! I do kind of love the spin of control freakness though ...I'm just awed by how you could mentally calculate and live by all that! Your mom's power play was hysterical though. Often I yearn for a new earth where clocks will no longer determine our unrighteousness, and we can all come when we get there, and stay as long as we can!

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